Over the last year I had forgotten what it was like to hope for more than just survival. I was spending my emotional energy working on being content and trying not to be afraid of the challenges life was presenting to us. Don't get me wrong, I am still grateful for the stretching they provided, but the simple fact is they have been blinkin' hard. Sometimes it was like being lost at sea and trying to convince yourself that at least the sunsets were beautiful. The last year has given me strength I didn't know I had, made friendships I value grow deeper roots, and reminded me to savour all the moments of my life no matter how challenging. But I am ready for the wave of good news that seems to be making its way into our life.
I have signed on to a full-time, sleeping night shift job that comes with benefits. I love working at the group home. There is such an amazing network of people there. And our clients, though challenging, each have a charming and fun personality in their own way.
Alex's job has been growing and getting better, and though the process has been slow, he is being challenged in ways he hasn't before.
Levi seems to really have clicked with reading and it has been such a relief to him. He is excited about learning again!
Hannah is healthy as far as we know. The doctor is going to talk to the pediatrician to see if we need to do allergy testing but for the most part there is nothing to worry about.
And the icing on the cake is that we are getting a house! It isn't a done deal yet but it is looking really good. Three bedrooms upstairs and one down. Two full bathrooms. A nice new deck in the backyard. Fantastic neighborhood. Wow! As I said before I had forgotten what it was like to hope for more than survival. And, boy, is it ever nice to hope for more. Even if it doesn't work out, even having the possibility is so nice. And a chance will come again.